Mel, you asked me about "altar" thing. Well, I couldn't do it. Don't know why. I just thought it might be wrong to do the same thing as he does. And if it disturbs me…

I had a talk. Twice actually. The first time I told him that I saw the pictures he had hided in each corner of his computer. His reaction was relaxed, other than I expected. I knew I had to say more. But I couldn't. Didn't know how…

The second talk was much more complicated. I started to tell about the pictures of his ex girlfriends on the wall and that I have problems with that behave…. First he was confused. Totally. He didn't know what to say and what to think about. I told him that it would be one of my biggest fears that his picture about me could change. And I was sure to loose him because of what I was saying. But that was only the beginning of a long talk...

With the time I could say more about my feelings and he began to understand what I was trying to say. And at the end he cried and said, that this would be like a prove for my love.

I felt so much lighter after this...

And now I feel safe. Safe in a way that I know that I am able now to talk about everything. To open myself in a way I never could before. And that he understands. He's so kind and patient. I always wanted to open myself 100%, but I never could before. This is the first time. And it feels so good in one way.

Now almost all these pictures are away and that feels good. I feel so good. So much in love...

I gave him a little gift for his mishmash he needs around him. But now it's something from me.

Mel, I like your draw. You named everything what is important.

And I would like to come to the concert with you. Have to look for an outfit, but it seems a nice idea to go there dressed up as a sailor girl.